I need to build a structural support for my skull.  I can't tell if it's going to cave in or explode, but I can feel something in it changing.  In the mirror I can see pinhole fireworks under the scalp causing faultlines.  I wish I knew how much of this world was dependent on me keeping my head intact.  I want to know it's just about me & my mind.  As I'm concentrating to stay unified I start to lose control of my body starting with my feet & hands shaking & going up my arms & legs until I can't even control my eyes anymore.  This is survival.